Once upon a time, I made it my mission to write a post daily (weekdaily that is). Back then, life was easy. I only had one little ball of energy to run after, I slept through the night, and time was on my side.
Those days are long gone! And I find it nearly impossible to get a day's work done in a day's time. Between Avi and her needs, Bar and her needs, Richie and his needs, I have mere seconds left to tend to my own. It's been overwhelming and exhausting and wonderful all at once. The thing is...I have a tendency when I'm overstretched to slump into these moments when I feel bad for myself. It's all too hard. There's no time in the day. Things are falling through the cracks. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel...
And then I have a moment. A minor epiphany. A glimpse of clarity. And it brings me a burst of energy. And I realize that my life is in my own hands. And nothing is unmanageable. And there is no good reason to shy away from responsibilities, challenges, new beginnings. There is room if you make it. You'll never know how much you're capable of until you push yourself to the limits.
As Bar gets bigger (and better at the sleep thing) and I have more and more time in my day to concentrate on whatever I choose to, I find myself in a place where I have to decide: what do I want to do now? And though my time is majorly limited, if I don't use that space that's been freed in my life wisely, I'll be stuck in the same place spinning my wheels.
Accomplishment comes with hard work, not just time, but persistence. And while life today is beyond hard work, I must push harder to accomplish the goals I set for myself. My goals are lofty, grand, beyond reach, always changing. But that's what makes them perfect. Baby steps, but daily ones, will bring me closer.
A terrace garden. A farther reach for LLL. Advanced asanas. More clients. A perfect ride (Soul Cycle ride that is). More sex. Home made baby food. An even cleaner diet. Sleep. Good style. A chic home. I could go on...
So, though my life was interrupted, so beautifully by this new Baby Bar, by Avital's toddlerhood, by all the incredible responsibility that comes with family life, that is no good excuse for ignoring my baby steps, momentum, daily goals.
So, in the spirit of inspiration, perseverance, making space in time, I'm going to do my best to get back to daily posting (or as close as I can)!
I want to expand my subject range a bit, open this up to life, as I live it, not just veganism, as that's just a small part of this huge thing we're doing. Veganism is my base, from there I sprout.
So, with the start of this summer, planted in this gorgeous day, I promise more to come!